- Application in the mail with $50.00 deposit....CHECK
- hree reference letters mailed to FAME...CHECK
- New Social Security card...CHECK
- Get birth certificate corrected....Monday
- Apply for passport...Monday
- Start shots...Tuesday....
Friday, February 26, 2010
Checklist!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Shots
OK.
So I called my Dr's office today about my shots - they don't do them.
I called the Board of Health and asked about the Hepatitis A & B shots - It is a combined shot - and I have to get it twice. Once now and again right before I go. $50.00 bucks a pop. I didn't ask about the others, but after what I found out today, I'll call them back.
I called a Dr. that specialized in Travel shots - hopefully he'll call me back tomorrow.
I called the Visiting Nurse Service - here is the run down she gave me:
Hepatitis A & B - two times - $115.00 each - $230.00
Adult Polio booster - $40.00
Yellow Fever - $115.00
do you see a pattern here?
Tetanus - $55.00
Typhoid - $65.00
Flu & H1N1 - $25.00
Total = $530.00 - NOT including my Malaria Pills or my Anti-Diarrhea pills!
She was pretty sure those were all of the shots I needed.
And then she asks "How many do you want to get at a time?"
I laughed at her question! She was wondering because of the cost, not because of the number of shots I need to get! Right now I have a tentative appointment to get some of my shots on March 1st. See, I have to make sure my Typhoid pills (yes, I said PILLS!) aren't too close to the time I'll have to take my Malaria pills. I'll have Michael go with me so he can take pictures of them all for you!
Anyhow, now I have to call insurance - the nurse I spoke to said MAYBE the Hepatitis shots were covered - I need to call on the rest.
So that is on my list for tomorrow to do. I will also call the Board of Health again as well as the travel doctor. Hopefully I'll get good news!!
=)
Till tomorrow!
So I called my Dr's office today about my shots - they don't do them.
I called the Board of Health and asked about the Hepatitis A & B shots - It is a combined shot - and I have to get it twice. Once now and again right before I go. $50.00 bucks a pop. I didn't ask about the others, but after what I found out today, I'll call them back.
I called a Dr. that specialized in Travel shots - hopefully he'll call me back tomorrow.
I called the Visiting Nurse Service - here is the run down she gave me:
Hepatitis A & B - two times - $115.00 each - $230.00
Adult Polio booster - $40.00
Yellow Fever - $115.00
do you see a pattern here?
Tetanus - $55.00
Typhoid - $65.00
Flu & H1N1 - $25.00
Total = $530.00 - NOT including my Malaria Pills or my Anti-Diarrhea pills!
She was pretty sure those were all of the shots I needed.
And then she asks "How many do you want to get at a time?"
I laughed at her question! She was wondering because of the cost, not because of the number of shots I need to get! Right now I have a tentative appointment to get some of my shots on March 1st. See, I have to make sure my Typhoid pills (yes, I said PILLS!) aren't too close to the time I'll have to take my Malaria pills. I'll have Michael go with me so he can take pictures of them all for you!
Anyhow, now I have to call insurance - the nurse I spoke to said MAYBE the Hepatitis shots were covered - I need to call on the rest.
So that is on my list for tomorrow to do. I will also call the Board of Health again as well as the travel doctor. Hopefully I'll get good news!!
=)
Till tomorrow!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
MIssion Trip Q&A
Why Kenya? Why this trip? Why not one here in the U.S.?
This one was posted on FB and I admit I handled it wrong. But here is where I stand. It has been on my heart for sometime now to go on a missions trip. There are always mission trips on the church website and in the e-newsletter and none of them have felt like the right one. They've gone to New Orleans for the last few years over spring break. They do global ones and they do ones in our own neighborhood. The need is so great everywhere. When I saw this trip in December on the e-newsletter, I knew it was the one for me. Why? I'm still asking God. Michael asked why not one closer? I have no idea. We do stuff locally with and without the church. There are so many groups that need people to step up and make a difference. To do what they can to help those who need help - all over the world. But for me, I have confidence in my heart that this one is meant for me. I know that my hearts' door swung wide open on this one as soon as I heard about it. I have faith that it is going to be a life changing experience for me and I doubt that this will be my last mission trip.
What do you need to do?
1) Application with 3 references.
2) Passport
3) Fundraising
4) Shots
How long will you be gone?
We fly out on Sept 14th and will be back on Sept 24th. I believe that it is a day and 1/2 each way to travel.
What exactly will you be doing?
This is what I know from my first meeting. I will be assisting the medical staff with whatever needs to be done. They will be giving medical and dental physicals to up to 2000 kids while we are there. I might be doing crowd control (keeping everyone moving), doing personal care classes with the kids, or even assisting in the pharmacy.
On non-clinic days we will be doing things around the school as needed - painting, cleaning - whatever needs to be done.
I am stepping up to the plate to help as needed. I should have my information in a week or so when I get my information packet - so I'll fill you in as I find out!
What are you looking forward to the most?
1) Being used to help make a difference - even if it is a little one.
2) Stepping out of my comfort zone and rising to the call.
3) Working with a group of people who have a heart after God's.
4) The experience of lifetime.
What are you LEAST looking forward to?
1) The shots. =) Not that you've noticed, right?
2) I know the plane flights will be a challenge due to my RLS.
3) I love to help and fix things. I'm afraid of getting emotionally attached to the kids and not being able to help or fix things for them.
4) Stepping out of my comfort zone and not being able to rise to the calling.
5) Not being able to accurately describe my experience
Do you really think you are going to make a difference in a place like that?
I'd like to share a story with you that is a very important part of where I work:
Can I come with you? =)
SURE! I think it would be an AMAZING experience to share this with someone! If you are interested let me know! We can share the experience together...shots and all!!!
I know I'll have more information when I get my information packet - send me your questions and I'll answer them as I can!
To close this post, I'd like to share what someone expressed to me in not so many (nice) words. They asked why I was blogging and FBing about it as a Christian when clearly the bible says opposite. The bible says in Matthew 6:
Matthew 6
Giving to the Needy
1"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 3But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
I THINK they were trying to ask if I was doing this with the right heart. I took it differently and was really hurt by it. I cried, and prayed to God and asked Him to search my heart. To confirm that this mission trip was about His will and not about me.
So why did I blog about it? Well, there is a simple answer. I blogged about this and I shared with family and friends because I'm so excited I could pee my pants! I'm sharing my excitement, nervousness, thoughts and concerns on this blog as a journal. As a record for me.
Let's face it, I have ONE faithful reader (Hi Margie!) who has read my blog from the beginning. Who reads between the lines of my blog and can feel my heart and knows what is going on even when I don't. Who checks up on me when I'm not posting and who is honest with me. Someone who is my encourager, my uplifter and my angel. So to think I am posting to "shout like the hypocrites" did in the streets (and that was literally what they did) by blogging about my trip hurt my heart. I spent a whole night on a blog response but then I did the right thing and slept on it...and prayed about it. And then I slept on it for another two weeks. Then I realized that with the few people that check my blog (Hi few peeps!) I really feel in my heart that I am not being a hypocrite like what is mentioned in Matthew. And besides, this isn't something I can do alone. I need the prayers, support and help from those around me.
Something that happens as a Christian is that I get judged in everything I do. It's both a good thing and a bad thing. Sometimes I feel like I am damed if I do and damed if I don't. I mean, I'm all for accountability. It is what keeps us on the right path. But there are those that just judge for judgement sake. I am still growing as a Christian - and I'll stumble as I grow.
If I ever do something as a Christian that you want to talk about - let's talk.
So why did I post this now?
Typically if one person it thinking it, so are others. I decided to close my post with this so that if there are others questioning my motives behind my trip, hopefully they will see the difference. And again, if there are questions, you'd talk to me direct and not behind my back.
But to be brutally honest, this blog is about me - my life. I enjoy sharing things of my life - and I've always been heartfelt and honest. I've admitted my failures and my weaknesses - my hopes, dreams and my heartache - my laughter and my hobbies - regardless of who is reading. I use the blog as a journal and I wish I had started it sooner! So many things I wish I'd remembered over the years.
So please feel free to join me as I blog about my life's journey and as I blog about my mission trip.
This one was posted on FB and I admit I handled it wrong. But here is where I stand. It has been on my heart for sometime now to go on a missions trip. There are always mission trips on the church website and in the e-newsletter and none of them have felt like the right one. They've gone to New Orleans for the last few years over spring break. They do global ones and they do ones in our own neighborhood. The need is so great everywhere. When I saw this trip in December on the e-newsletter, I knew it was the one for me. Why? I'm still asking God. Michael asked why not one closer? I have no idea. We do stuff locally with and without the church. There are so many groups that need people to step up and make a difference. To do what they can to help those who need help - all over the world. But for me, I have confidence in my heart that this one is meant for me. I know that my hearts' door swung wide open on this one as soon as I heard about it. I have faith that it is going to be a life changing experience for me and I doubt that this will be my last mission trip.
What do you need to do?
1) Application with 3 references.
2) Passport
3) Fundraising
4) Shots
How long will you be gone?
We fly out on Sept 14th and will be back on Sept 24th. I believe that it is a day and 1/2 each way to travel.
What exactly will you be doing?
This is what I know from my first meeting. I will be assisting the medical staff with whatever needs to be done. They will be giving medical and dental physicals to up to 2000 kids while we are there. I might be doing crowd control (keeping everyone moving), doing personal care classes with the kids, or even assisting in the pharmacy.
On non-clinic days we will be doing things around the school as needed - painting, cleaning - whatever needs to be done.
I am stepping up to the plate to help as needed. I should have my information in a week or so when I get my information packet - so I'll fill you in as I find out!
What are you looking forward to the most?
1) Being used to help make a difference - even if it is a little one.
2) Stepping out of my comfort zone and rising to the call.
3) Working with a group of people who have a heart after God's.
4) The experience of lifetime.
What are you LEAST looking forward to?
1) The shots. =) Not that you've noticed, right?
2) I know the plane flights will be a challenge due to my RLS.
3) I love to help and fix things. I'm afraid of getting emotionally attached to the kids and not being able to help or fix things for them.
4) Stepping out of my comfort zone and not being able to rise to the calling.
5) Not being able to accurately describe my experience
Do you really think you are going to make a difference in a place like that?
I'd like to share a story with you that is a very important part of where I work:
The Starfish Story
Original Story by: Loren Eisley
One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed
a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean.
Approaching the boy, he asked, “What are you doing?”
The youth replied, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean. The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.”
“Son,” the man said, “don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish? You can’t make a difference!”
After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf. Then, smiling at the man, he said…”
I made a difference for that one.”
Can I come with you? =)
SURE! I think it would be an AMAZING experience to share this with someone! If you are interested let me know! We can share the experience together...shots and all!!!
I know I'll have more information when I get my information packet - send me your questions and I'll answer them as I can!
To close this post, I'd like to share what someone expressed to me in not so many (nice) words. They asked why I was blogging and FBing about it as a Christian when clearly the bible says opposite. The bible says in Matthew 6:
Matthew 6
Giving to the Needy
1"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.
2"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 3But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
I THINK they were trying to ask if I was doing this with the right heart. I took it differently and was really hurt by it. I cried, and prayed to God and asked Him to search my heart. To confirm that this mission trip was about His will and not about me.
So why did I blog about it? Well, there is a simple answer. I blogged about this and I shared with family and friends because I'm so excited I could pee my pants! I'm sharing my excitement, nervousness, thoughts and concerns on this blog as a journal. As a record for me.
Let's face it, I have ONE faithful reader (Hi Margie!) who has read my blog from the beginning. Who reads between the lines of my blog and can feel my heart and knows what is going on even when I don't. Who checks up on me when I'm not posting and who is honest with me. Someone who is my encourager, my uplifter and my angel. So to think I am posting to "shout like the hypocrites" did in the streets (and that was literally what they did) by blogging about my trip hurt my heart. I spent a whole night on a blog response but then I did the right thing and slept on it...and prayed about it. And then I slept on it for another two weeks. Then I realized that with the few people that check my blog (Hi few peeps!) I really feel in my heart that I am not being a hypocrite like what is mentioned in Matthew. And besides, this isn't something I can do alone. I need the prayers, support and help from those around me.
Something that happens as a Christian is that I get judged in everything I do. It's both a good thing and a bad thing. Sometimes I feel like I am damed if I do and damed if I don't. I mean, I'm all for accountability. It is what keeps us on the right path. But there are those that just judge for judgement sake. I am still growing as a Christian - and I'll stumble as I grow.
If I ever do something as a Christian that you want to talk about - let's talk.
So why did I post this now?
Typically if one person it thinking it, so are others. I decided to close my post with this so that if there are others questioning my motives behind my trip, hopefully they will see the difference. And again, if there are questions, you'd talk to me direct and not behind my back.
But to be brutally honest, this blog is about me - my life. I enjoy sharing things of my life - and I've always been heartfelt and honest. I've admitted my failures and my weaknesses - my hopes, dreams and my heartache - my laughter and my hobbies - regardless of who is reading. I use the blog as a journal and I wish I had started it sooner! So many things I wish I'd remembered over the years.
So please feel free to join me as I blog about my life's journey and as I blog about my mission trip.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Mission Trip Update
Things are moving along! I went to get a replacement Social Security card on Thursday. It was quicker thanks to a heads-up from a friend about what time to go!
I have my application ready to go - it'll go in the mail on Monday. Hopefully the 3 reference requests have been sent in as well!
It looks like I need to file to get a correction of my birth certificate. It has always had daddy's middle name wrong (Henry instead of Harry) and from what I've read it has to be correct for my passport. So that will delay my applying for my passport about two weeks.
I'll call Monday to check on getting my shots started. The organization (F.A.M.E) has a few suggestions on doctors that specialize on shots for missions.
I have an idea for a fundraiser for work - I hope I explain it correctly! I'll set out 5 containers (one for each department) and collect pennies. The container with the most pennies wins! BUT...if you have any silver or paper money in your container, it offsets the pennies - so you would put pennies in your container - but silver/paper in everyone else's. The winning department would get one of these: I'll cook breakfast one morning, bring in afternoon snacks or fix some goodies. Those I've asked about it thought it was a good idea. What do you think?
That's it for now...doesn't seem like much, but the ball is rolling. I know it'll be here before I know it!!!
Thanks for checking in...I've gotten a few questions so I'll do a Q&A post soon!
I have my application ready to go - it'll go in the mail on Monday. Hopefully the 3 reference requests have been sent in as well!
It looks like I need to file to get a correction of my birth certificate. It has always had daddy's middle name wrong (Henry instead of Harry) and from what I've read it has to be correct for my passport. So that will delay my applying for my passport about two weeks.
I'll call Monday to check on getting my shots started. The organization (F.A.M.E) has a few suggestions on doctors that specialize on shots for missions.
I have an idea for a fundraiser for work - I hope I explain it correctly! I'll set out 5 containers (one for each department) and collect pennies. The container with the most pennies wins! BUT...if you have any silver or paper money in your container, it offsets the pennies - so you would put pennies in your container - but silver/paper in everyone else's. The winning department would get one of these: I'll cook breakfast one morning, bring in afternoon snacks or fix some goodies. Those I've asked about it thought it was a good idea. What do you think?
That's it for now...doesn't seem like much, but the ball is rolling. I know it'll be here before I know it!!!
Thanks for checking in...I've gotten a few questions so I'll do a Q&A post soon!
Monday, February 8, 2010
First Steps
For a short day at work...it was a LONG day! We didn't have to be at work until 10 today (gotta love the 2 hour delay) but this day wouldn't end!! I think it had to do with the headache I've had all stinking day - and that is probably due to the lack of sleep from last night. I just took a Midol PM so hopefully I'll sleep well tonight!
Well I didn't get the Reis Nichols jewelry today - My thought process was good on the clue, but not the right location. But not that I could have went after it anyhow. Tomorrow is a new day!
I was able to take the first step today for my missions trip! I printed out the application and the letters of reference that I need. I have to have 3 letters from people answering a few questions about me. And I have to fill out an application as well. Most stuff is easy but then you get to those questions "what are you strong suits" or "What skills, abilities, hobbies do you have that will help the team" and my least favorite is "What are your areas of weakness" - yuck! So I'll I have to finish filling it in and get it in the mail with my registration fee! I'm sooo excited! Tomorrow I'm going to fill out the paperwork for my Passport! And then I need to start making calls about getting my shots. Not so cool. =)
I went to Bible Study tonight - it was really good. The whole study is on Peter. Tonight we went through a number of verses about the character of Peter - And what characteristics do we have similar to him that pulls us closer into a real relationship with Jesus or what ones are we lacking that keep us from that relationship. Unfortunately I have more on the lacking side. =( But our discussion questions afterwards were amazing. Very pointed and direct, but they pulled out honest answers.
We are expecting up to another 9 inches of snow over the next 36 hours or so. We are still down to two cars - So Andrew will take me to work and pick me up. Michael is on standby for SnowCon tomorrow so my GOAL is to get my lazy butt up outta bed in the morning and make him some breakfast so he starts the day warm.
Speaking of bed, the Midol PM is kicking in so I'm going to bed!
Thanks for sharing my day with me! I'll keep you posted on the details for tomorrow!!!!
Well I didn't get the Reis Nichols jewelry today - My thought process was good on the clue, but not the right location. But not that I could have went after it anyhow. Tomorrow is a new day!
I was able to take the first step today for my missions trip! I printed out the application and the letters of reference that I need. I have to have 3 letters from people answering a few questions about me. And I have to fill out an application as well. Most stuff is easy but then you get to those questions "what are you strong suits" or "What skills, abilities, hobbies do you have that will help the team" and my least favorite is "What are your areas of weakness" - yuck! So I'll I have to finish filling it in and get it in the mail with my registration fee! I'm sooo excited! Tomorrow I'm going to fill out the paperwork for my Passport! And then I need to start making calls about getting my shots. Not so cool. =)
I went to Bible Study tonight - it was really good. The whole study is on Peter. Tonight we went through a number of verses about the character of Peter - And what characteristics do we have similar to him that pulls us closer into a real relationship with Jesus or what ones are we lacking that keep us from that relationship. Unfortunately I have more on the lacking side. =( But our discussion questions afterwards were amazing. Very pointed and direct, but they pulled out honest answers.
We are expecting up to another 9 inches of snow over the next 36 hours or so. We are still down to two cars - So Andrew will take me to work and pick me up. Michael is on standby for SnowCon tomorrow so my GOAL is to get my lazy butt up outta bed in the morning and make him some breakfast so he starts the day warm.
Speaking of bed, the Midol PM is kicking in so I'm going to bed!
Thanks for sharing my day with me! I'll keep you posted on the details for tomorrow!!!!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Mission Trip Destination: KENYA
IT'S OFFICIAL!
I'm going to Kenya!
This is the notice that was in the church newsletter:
Make A Difference In Kenya
Fame is sending a team to Kenya September 14 – 24, 2010 and we would like to join with them to send people to help work in one of the largest slums in the world. They will be partnering with Keith and Kathy Ham, missionaries with CMF International and Wallace and Mary Kamau, Directors of Missions of Hope International. The main focus of the trip will be the Mathare Valley in Nairobi, Kenya, one of the largest slum areas in the world. They are recruiting a medical team and non-medical support staff to minister to the physical and spiritual needs of thousands of Kenyans. One unique aspect of this trip is the opportunity to interact with and provide school physicals for many of the over 2,000 students attending the various Hope Center schools. If you are a doctor, dentist, nurse, PA, NP, PT, or just someone that wants to make a difference in the lives of the Kenyan people, please consider joining this team.
_________________________________________
Details that I know to this point:
• 2 days to travel each way
• English is the primary language spoken in Kenya, follow by Swahili
• The medical team will be doing school type of physicals for the kids
• The non-medical staff (me) will be doing personal care/preventative care classes
• Non-clinic days will be spent working around the schools doing what is needed
• Some of the children live at the schools and not with their families
• It is not uncommon to see kids huffing/doing drugs in the streets
• It is common to see people cooking outdoors right next to the "sewer"
• I will be a pin cushion before I go. My shots start THIS month
• I can't wear shorts while I am there
• I will be part of a team, up to 30 people
• I will have to take malaria pills while I am there - and yes, there are nets all around the beds
• Part of one day will be spent on an African Safari
• We will be housed about 20 minutes from the Mathare Valley
• We will have breakfast/dinner where we stay, lunch at the schools
• I will be responsible for preparing a devotion/class to share with the kids
• I will experience a worship service like I've never experienced before
• I will never be the same again!
What are my next steps?
• Lots and lots of prayer
• I need to register and get my packet of information
• There are a handful of shots (and then some) I need to get. I think only two are covered by insurance. Some need to be spaced out over months, so I need to start by the end of February!
• I need to start fundraising. If you have thoughts/suggestions I would apprecaite it!
• I need to get a passport
• Prayer for the devotion/class topic God wants me to share
How can you help? Prayer is the most important thing! Pray for the team, for our safe travels, for our families at home, for the people that we will be working with! Pray that God's will will be our will and that the focus of this trip will be about serving and changing lives!
I'll be updating on a regular basis. Please feel free to comment or e-mail me if you have any thoughts/questions/suggestions!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Waiting....
No decision has been made yet. We are on two different wave lengths about it and I'll admit it is hard. My heart yearns to go - especially after the meeting yesterday. I probably got my hopes up prematurely too. His heart is concerned about my safety.
Here is a song that describes me right now. It's "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. The song is from the amazing movie "FIREPROOF" - I wanted to find just a nice pretty video for you to watch while you are listening, but the first video I pulled up has clips from the movie as well as the words and I just couldn't resist. Take a moment to watch the video before you go on.
Obedience. How is my not pushing Michael being obedient? Someone mentioned today that I supported him when we were moving to Hawaii - I should remind him of that. While he was gone I had the responsibility of selling everything in the house, getting it ready for the market not to mention all of this was happening while losing my mom. I supported his dream of moving back there. But I also remember what God's design for marriage is. If you have a Godly husband that is seeking God's will for his family then then God's will will filter down. So if Michael is praying about this and he still doesn't have peace about it, then who am I to push against that? Now many of you know Michael doesn't attend church. Nothing against Indian Creek, but that is just the place he is right now. How can I be sure Michael is praying and seeking God's will? I can see it in his face. I see his eyes close in prayer and I can feel his torn heart breaking as he seeks what to do/say. Are my eyes clouded in excitement and I'm possibly not seeing something? Possibly. Michael knows that if this is from God then he can't stop it and nor would he try. BUT until he has a peace about this (not that he won't be nervous/anxious about it still) we are waiting. Now don't get me wrong....I am not just sitting by not saying anything. This is a frequent topic for us and yes, a decision needs to made soon so I can get started on my shots. The decision will come and I pray that we BOTH have peace about it.
Heavenly Father I thank You for Your Word and for Your plan for a blessed marriage that is in it. I thank you for Michael who knows you as Lord and Jesus as Savior. I humbly ask now that Your will is made clear to us regarding this mission trip. Please make Your will clear to us and Holy Spirit please give us a clear answer.
If you would like to pray about this for us I would appreciate it. We are still communicating peacefully and honestly on this so I pray that continues. In the meantime I will continue to strive to be the wife God is changing me into!
PS...if you haven't seen FIREPROOF - go rent it. We were so blessed by the movie and I encourage all couples to see it. More on that later!
Here is a song that describes me right now. It's "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. The song is from the amazing movie "FIREPROOF" - I wanted to find just a nice pretty video for you to watch while you are listening, but the first video I pulled up has clips from the movie as well as the words and I just couldn't resist. Take a moment to watch the video before you go on.
That song really ministers to me right now. While I wait, I will continue to worship Him. I'm hopeful but patiently I'll wait. It's not easy, but faithfully I'll wait. And I'll take every step in obedience.
Obedience. How is my not pushing Michael being obedient? Someone mentioned today that I supported him when we were moving to Hawaii - I should remind him of that. While he was gone I had the responsibility of selling everything in the house, getting it ready for the market not to mention all of this was happening while losing my mom. I supported his dream of moving back there. But I also remember what God's design for marriage is. If you have a Godly husband that is seeking God's will for his family then then God's will will filter down. So if Michael is praying about this and he still doesn't have peace about it, then who am I to push against that? Now many of you know Michael doesn't attend church. Nothing against Indian Creek, but that is just the place he is right now. How can I be sure Michael is praying and seeking God's will? I can see it in his face. I see his eyes close in prayer and I can feel his torn heart breaking as he seeks what to do/say. Are my eyes clouded in excitement and I'm possibly not seeing something? Possibly. Michael knows that if this is from God then he can't stop it and nor would he try. BUT until he has a peace about this (not that he won't be nervous/anxious about it still) we are waiting. Now don't get me wrong....I am not just sitting by not saying anything. This is a frequent topic for us and yes, a decision needs to made soon so I can get started on my shots. The decision will come and I pray that we BOTH have peace about it.
Heavenly Father I thank You for Your Word and for Your plan for a blessed marriage that is in it. I thank you for Michael who knows you as Lord and Jesus as Savior. I humbly ask now that Your will is made clear to us regarding this mission trip. Please make Your will clear to us and Holy Spirit please give us a clear answer.
If you would like to pray about this for us I would appreciate it. We are still communicating peacefully and honestly on this so I pray that continues. In the meantime I will continue to strive to be the wife God is changing me into!
PS...if you haven't seen FIREPROOF - go rent it. We were so blessed by the movie and I encourage all couples to see it. More on that later!
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