This is one of my all time favorite songs (hummm...this group plays TWO of my favorite songs!) - and it has been speaking to me since it came out. I can't find a good video of it with the lyrics - so here is the song and they lyrics separate!
Sometimes Your calling, comes in dream
Sometimes in comes in the Spirit's breeze
You reach for the deepest hope in me
And call out for the things of eternity
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say
Chorus
Here I am, Lord send me
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me
Somehow my story is a part of Your plan,
Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands
Are You not the closest when it's hardest to stand
I know that You will finish what You began
And these broken parts You will redeem
Become the song that I can sing
Chorus
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness
And the fear that I'll fail You in the end
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but You can
Chorus
Here I Am, all my life an offering to You, to You
Somehow my story is a part of Your plan
Here I am
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Seeking God's Will...
For the last few weeks I've had something on my heart. I haven't shared it with everyone yet because it is still in the works.
But this weekend is decision weekend for us.
I've wanted to go on a mission trip for some time now. Recently it's been a stronger pull to do something that is going to make a difference for others. Not sure if it has something to do with me turning 40 this year - is it a mid life crisis?? Is this something I want to do for me? For others to see me do? Or is it God's will? How do I figure this out?
I'm not sure to some of the answers up there. I wouldn't call it a mid life crisis by any means. I know that turning 40 is a moment of crisis for some. But I am truly the opposite. I think that being here 40 years is a blessing! God has something planned for me and I'm still working towards that! Each day He is working something good in me - changing me.
Am I doing this just for me? I think it is clear from people who have gone on a missions trip that missions trips are about helping others - but typically it is the missionary that is blessed. So in a sense, yes, this is for me - but not in a selfish all about me sense. I sure hope that makes sense!
Am I doing this for others to see me do? Sure people will know. Sure I will share it with everyone. I am expecting this to be a complete God thing and I'll never be the same. BUT the purpose of a Christian is not to point to themselves but to point to Jesus Christ and the sacrifice He made for each of us. I pray that as I experience this and afterwards I'll never be the same. That the Holy Spirit will move deep within me and change me in every way. That when I talk to others about this and share - they will see that it was the work of the Holy Spirit and I am just doing what God wants me to do.
Is this God's will? I think this one is the hardest. Learning to step aside my will, my thoughts and desires on this and truly seek if this is from God. Hard to do. I WANT to go. But if this isn't from God then I want no part of it.
So I've been praying and asking others to pray for a clear decision. Michael isn't 100% on this yet - he is worried about my safety. So I'll admit that I have asked others to pray to soften his heart. BUT I've requested prayers that his heart is softened towards the idea - to consider it, not that I get to go. Big difference there. Michael and I have been discussing this for a month now - and he said that he is honestly considering it...he said that "If this is a God thing, who am I to step in the way."
I have a meeting to go to Sunday at after church. To find out more information about the trip. Maybe I'll get an answer there if this is the one for me. Maybe I get some information that will give Michael some peace. There is lots to consider, lots to discuss and lots to pray about.
So I ask that you pray for God's will on this as well.
I leave this in His hands.
But this weekend is decision weekend for us.
I've wanted to go on a mission trip for some time now. Recently it's been a stronger pull to do something that is going to make a difference for others. Not sure if it has something to do with me turning 40 this year - is it a mid life crisis?? Is this something I want to do for me? For others to see me do? Or is it God's will? How do I figure this out?
I'm not sure to some of the answers up there. I wouldn't call it a mid life crisis by any means. I know that turning 40 is a moment of crisis for some. But I am truly the opposite. I think that being here 40 years is a blessing! God has something planned for me and I'm still working towards that! Each day He is working something good in me - changing me.
Am I doing this just for me? I think it is clear from people who have gone on a missions trip that missions trips are about helping others - but typically it is the missionary that is blessed. So in a sense, yes, this is for me - but not in a selfish all about me sense. I sure hope that makes sense!
Am I doing this for others to see me do? Sure people will know. Sure I will share it with everyone. I am expecting this to be a complete God thing and I'll never be the same. BUT the purpose of a Christian is not to point to themselves but to point to Jesus Christ and the sacrifice He made for each of us. I pray that as I experience this and afterwards I'll never be the same. That the Holy Spirit will move deep within me and change me in every way. That when I talk to others about this and share - they will see that it was the work of the Holy Spirit and I am just doing what God wants me to do.
Is this God's will? I think this one is the hardest. Learning to step aside my will, my thoughts and desires on this and truly seek if this is from God. Hard to do. I WANT to go. But if this isn't from God then I want no part of it.
So I've been praying and asking others to pray for a clear decision. Michael isn't 100% on this yet - he is worried about my safety. So I'll admit that I have asked others to pray to soften his heart. BUT I've requested prayers that his heart is softened towards the idea - to consider it, not that I get to go. Big difference there. Michael and I have been discussing this for a month now - and he said that he is honestly considering it...he said that "If this is a God thing, who am I to step in the way."
I have a meeting to go to Sunday at after church. To find out more information about the trip. Maybe I'll get an answer there if this is the one for me. Maybe I get some information that will give Michael some peace. There is lots to consider, lots to discuss and lots to pray about.
So I ask that you pray for God's will on this as well.
I leave this in His hands.
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